I AM A MORON

Well, it has been over two years since surgery... I still have scars but it was the best thing I ever did for myself.

Right now I'm procrastinating from reading a book, The Once & Future King, for my book club. I'd rather watch TV and browse the internet, the only time I ever read is at night and it puts me to sleep. I'm only on page 53 and it is over 650 pages. I need to finish it in about a week and a half.

yep, i'm as flat as a board. it rocks. i got my drains pulled, right one i didn't even feel. left one felt a bit like getting stuck by a needle. looking down at my flat chest was surreal. they cut away some of my binding to help with the digging in, but i think they cut TOO much. it barely covers my right nipple graft. hmm.

went to fisherman's wharf with a view of the golden gate bridge and alcatraz. saw the sea lions. then walked to the cable car and took it all the way up and down the hilly streets. it was an exciting 20-25 minute ride.

But i'm pooped and ready to rest the remainder of the night.

Lastnight made it across the street for dinner. This morning walked about four/five blocks to breakfast. After breakfast walked to chinatown and around a little, then back. I'm pooped. It was fun though. Hoping to get touristy things in tomorrow and maybe tonight.

my binding is digging into my skin and rubbing, causing a nasty bruise and lots of itchiness. i only have two more days until i can take this off and get readjusted. everything seemed fine with the wrapping until i had to go into surgery for the second time. my surgeon said i could used benadryl (sp)? to help with that. i've heard of some guys getting permanent scars from the digging in. i hope this isn't the case. i've tried to shift it but it hurts too much.

tuesday at 1:30 i get to look at my chest for the first time when the drains are pulled. i'll know if the grafts took, im 99% sure they did but i was 99% sure i wasn't going to get a hematoma.

well... day two or three post surgery, depending on how you look at it. had to go to er thursday night and go under again. i'm ok. just a day behind recovery/pain wise. cool ass bruise too. looks really deep purple/mauve according to mom

Will try to keep this updated. The hotel is really cool but mom took a shower and now i hear fucking drips. hope i can sleep tonight and also wake up on time tomorrow. it is about a ten minute walk to the surgery center from here. yippee!!

I miss my family. They're all having fun in Hawaii without me.

I've got about 4.5 or 5 inches. It makes everything so white and quiet, except when my neighbor takes his 4 wheeler up and down the street. This may be a good thing though 'cause i need to get out of here tomorrow morning. I took a walk down the hill to see how things are and the road has been sanded and is slushy right now. hopefully it won't get too cold i'll be able to get out. There were a few cars turned the wrong way on the hill and i passed by a couple of people going to rescue their cars left at the park.

Now i should be packing and cleaning up but i feel like being lazy and watching the same updates on the news over and over again.